Why did it have to end like this?

Staring into your eyes, I see you loved me.
But there was nothing to prepare me for what you did next.
You ripped out my heart,
And pushed me away.

Why did it have to end like this?
You finally showed your true monster.
I love you, yet you ran away.
You fucking used me.

Your best friend ask for me.
You knew the way he was.
But you went ahead and threw me away.
Now I'm stuck with the scars of his sex life

Why did it end like this?
You finally showed your true monster.
I love you, yet you ran away.
You fucking used me.

I was thrown on beds,
And pressed up against walls
Yet the whole time I was thinking of you.
And wondering why you let it end like this.

Why did it end like this?
You finally showed your true monster.
I love you, yet you ran away.
You fucking used me

I fucking lied to myself
And said you would come and rescue me.
I held hopes for you
But they were all forgotten dreams.

Why did it end like this?
You finally showed your true monster.
I love you, yet you ran away.
You fucking used me.

Cut Myself on Angel Hair

The sky is the limit, some say.
Others say the worls is safe.
But they are all wrong!
The world is hell in disguise.
And the sky is fire in stead of clouds.

Cut my wrist on angels hair
And lose my air to baby's breath
The worls is spinning
And time is speeding up.

The demons of the world is gathering
Smothering me in lies.
The devil is laughing in my face as I run.
Bombs are falling from the sky.
Children are dieing in the street.

Cut my wrists on angels hair
And lose my air to baby's breath.
The worls is spinning
And time is speeding up.

People scream in agony
Women losing their heads
Men doing the killing
When will this end?

Cut my wrist on angels hair
And lose my air to baby's breath.
The world is spinning
And time is speeding up.

YAY!!

OMG YES!!! I'm outta school for the summer!! I can have all the time in the world to have fun!! My b/f is so HOT and he loves vampires just like me! It's SO amazing! Life is getting SO much better now... but it's going to be hard to avoide my dad grrr.... well........................................................................................... i relly like dots lol....................................... and swigallys..... ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

lol well I'm so much happier right now :P so i guess i better go.... I'll try and update later okay?

I'm sooo sorry!

I'm soo sorry... the past three days have been busy and emotional...... on the 1st i got a boyfriend... the 2nd i went to grad dance and was misarble cuz of a "someone"... and today my dad was being a dick.... so yea very busy weekend and not very fun either well gots to go bye people

Almost spring fling! OMG IM NOT READY!!

Man, I'm soo freaking out! Spring Fling is this saturday and 7 and I have no idea how I am going to look! well g2g lots to do!!

Hey nobody said it had to hurt right?

Guess what? Wes broke up with me.. I know that you all think I should be crying and shit but hell, it help the pain i was feeling... so he more or less helped me out in the end.. seriously... it didn't hurt.... and hell I could go out with a freshman if I want to.... who knows.. well g2g ill update you tomorrow peace..

ITS WORST!!!

Well here's today's update.... Wes has defiantly lost it.... he not mad o no he's worried and...scared? I found out from Momo that he is ignoring me cause he doesn't want to harm me..... and I'm sure ALL of you know what happened..... IT MADE IT WORST!! I cried ALL the way home..... so i was over heating, crying, and NOT paying attention...... (i almost got hit by a car) I know he's looking out for my best interest but he's has it backwards..... awe great here come the water works again.... WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!! WHY ME!? I'm sick of it... why r boys so confusing? and why do they assume that a girl wants one thing when she wants something else?? i don't know why but if you d can you tell me? i really need the help..

Boys Bite

You know how you feel when your pride is harmed? Well that's what my boyfriend has done to me.... only ten thousand times more.... tell me does this sound right? You walking along with you b/f (or g/f w/e) and you friend and all of a sudden he (or she) starts acting like they don't even know who you are? o and on top of that my step bro Mike got kicked out of my dads house and idk if i should keep going there or go to court so i never have to see him again.. and well I'm sick and tired of it! i should sooo turn goth seeing as how i can keep my life strait n e more grrrrr.....